Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 61 

Still Blazes POV..... 

3 weeks had went by and nothing had happened, she was still unresponsive. 

"Blaze you have to go home go get cleaned up and get some sleep please" Aubrey pleaded but I just shook my head. I hadn't left her side since I got back. Seeing her for the first time broke my heart all those tubes and needles sticking out of her. She shouldn't be here she doesn't deserve to be here. 

"You're no good to her when you're in this state Blaze. What happens if she wakes up?" Franko asked placing his hand on my shoulder. 

"I have to be here when she wakes up" I whispered rubbing at my tired eyes. The only sleep I got was when I managed to doze of on the chair beside her bed. We still didn't have a lead on Vagos it was as if they had disappeared of the face of the earth. But mark my words when we get them I'll have all their heads on sticks. Word had spread fast about what had happened and everyone knew Franko Mendez was after blood. 

"You'll be the first-...." 

"I'm not leaving her" I growled cutting him off. No matter what we had been through or how badly I hurt her I wasn't leaving her side. If she wakes up and wants me to go then so be it but until those beautiful eyes open I was going no where. 

"Leave him be Franko" Aubrey sighed "Do you remember when I ended up in the hospital? You wouldn't leave my side either". 

"I need a smoke" He grumbled the door hitting the wall as he left. 

"You really care for her don't you?" She asked taking the seat beside me. Care for her? I fucking loved her. 

"More than anything" I sighed running a hand through my hair. If she would just wake up, or at least move a finger. 

"I didn't know how I felt about you hanging around her all the time. Could say I was afraid the same would happen to her that happened to me. Ava is a strong girl Blaze and trust me when I say she'll pull through this" Taking my hand in hers she squeezed it tightly "If you care for her as much as you say you do then please fight for her. Show her that she can have a good life with you she deserves the world". 

"For the first time in my life I'm scared" I said honestly. "I want nothing more than for her to be happy I just wish I was enough". 

"You are Blaze you just got to show her you are. I know my daughter and the way she looks at you but she feels that she isn't enough for you and after you slept with that..." 

"Please don't remind me" I groaned cutting her off. "I don't deserve her Aubrey but I can't seem to let her go. I've tried to forget about her but I always have her here" I said tapping the side of my head. 

"You're right you don't deserve her but I know deep down she still cares for you. Don't give up on her this time Blaze because if you do you might not get another chance and don't break her heart again because you won't like the outcome this time. Now for the sake of my daughters health please go home and take a shower" She smiled slightly shoving my shoulder. 

"You'll call if she wakes?" I asked getting to my feet. Bending over I placed a gentle kiss on her forehead. I guess going 3 weeks without a wash wasn't a good thing. 

"I promise and make sure they cook you something before you come back". 

"Fine" I grumbled not wanting to leave her but what choice did I have? 

Throwing herself at me she wrapped her arms around my waist. God she was just as little as Ava. "Thank you for always looking out for my baby. Her father and I really appreciate it even if we don't tell you. And Blaze you are good enough for her" She whispered placing a kiss on my cheek. 

Giving her one more glance I left her room making my way through the waiting area and out the front doors to my bike. Catching sight of Franko talking with 

Tommy I strolled towards them. 

"How you holding up?" Tommy asked as he passed me his smoke. Taking a long drag I inhaled deeply before letting it all out. Truth be told I wasn't holding up and the only thing keeping me going was knowing she was still breathing. 

"Not great then" He answered for me. What was he expecting me to say? 

"I want everyone at church tonight" Franko said as he dropped the butt of his cigarette and lit up another one. "I need to know everyone is focused and I need some sort of lead or heads are going to start rolling". 

Fuck church I wasn't leaving her. 

"On it prez and don't worry we'll get the bastards" Tommy growled slapping Franko on the shoulder before making his way into the hospital. 

"I know what you're going to say but fuck Blaze I need your head to be in this. I need you focused". 

"How can I be focused when she's fucking lying in there? I can't focus on anything but Ava and I know you're desperate to find those fuckers and trust me so am I but right now.." 

"I want them dead before she wakes up Blaze. I want their prez brought to me so I can make his death a slow and painful one" He said cutting me off. 

"I want that more than anything but do you think going in all guns blazing when we don't even know where they are is such a good idea?" I asked 

"I don't give a fuck how we do it. My little girl is lying in a hospital bed fighting for her fucking life because of they bastards. You of all people should be wanting to kill those fuckers with your bare hands". 

"I fucking do Franko more than anyone but let's be smart about this one. Once we get a lead on where they are then we go after them but right now we lay low. Who's to say they won't come back and finish her off?" 

I was wiping the blood from my nose before I realised what had happened. Snorting out the blood I bared my teeth. That fucker got me good and now I knew where Ava got it from. Glaring at him I knew now wasn't the time to push anymore of his buttons. 

"I can't stand here and do nothing not while she's in there lying helpless. I need to throw something there way. A warning, anything but they need to know we are coming for them". 

"You do what you gotta do prez but right now I gotta look after the only thing that keeps me going. You need me to do anything you let me know but I won't be attending church tonight". 

Slumping against the wall he brought his hand up and wiped at his eyes. "You look after her and don't leave her side for no one not even the doctors. I'll keep you in the loop about what our move will be". 

Nodding my head I gave his back a pat as I mounted my bike. I had wasted time and I really couldn't afford to do that not when she could wake up at any second. Clipping my helmet together I turned the key to my bike and revved my engine. 

"Oh and Blaze take a fucking shower before you come back here" He grumbled chucking his cigarette away before heading back inside. 

One thing was for sure him and Aubrey were well suited. 

Pulling into the clubhouse my eyes fell into slits when I noticed the parked SUV. I knew who it was and I knew it was going to happen sooner or later but right now wasn't the fucking time. Yes he was my brother and yes I hated that he was dating Ava but in the last 3 weeks he has never once shown his face at the hospital. Growling I unhooked my helmet and jumped of my bike. I couldn't deal with him right now and he better stay out my way. 

Storming into the clubhouse I noticed how quiet and eerie it was and then my eyes landed on my brother. Who does he think he is coming into my territory with his fancy car and his fancy suits. 

"You're not staying so get the fuck out" As soon as the words left my mouth Shane got to his feet. "And take your lap dog with you" I growled my hands balling 

into fists. 

"I don't want no trouble Sean" He spoke placing his hand on Shane's shoulder. 

He was the only person ever to call me Sean well a part from my mother. "You shouldn't have walked through those doors then" Walking toward the bar I signalled for Kelsey to get me a drink. 

"How is she?" She asked pouring me a whiskey. 

Downing it I motioned for another one. "Still the same" I muttered turning to see that he hadn't moved. "Why are you still here?" I snapped I didn't want to get into a brawl with him but what makes him think it's okay to show up here? 

"I just want to know how she-..." 

"Don't you fucking dare" I roared throwing my glass against the nearest wall. I was well aware of the guys taking a stand. Nobody was in the right state of mind right now everyone was angry and Nate being here wasn't helping the situation. Waving my hand signalled for them to stand down. "You don't get to fucking ask how she is. You have no right to even speak her name. Where the fuck were you? She's been lying in that hospital for 3 weeks and you're suppose to be her boyfriend?" I laughed "What was it this time Nate? A business proposal? A hot date? Come on what was it that was so important you couldn't visit your girlfriend in the hospital?" I snapped even saying the words was like having acid dripped onto my tongue. 

"Do you know what I don't have fucking time for this I don't care what excuse you're going to pull from your ass. Nothing should have been more important than that girl in the hospital. This is a warning Nate go anywhere near her and I'll put you to ground" Storming towards my room I slammed the door shut 

behind me. 

Wrapping a towel around my waist I wiped the steam from the mirror and stared at my reflection fuck I looked like shit. Rubbing another towel through my hair 

I threw it into the corner of my room. Sitting on the edge of my bed I lit up a smoke just as there was a knock at the door and Jared walked in. 

"How's she doing?" He asked leaning against the door frame. Pinching the bridge of my nose I took a long draw of my smoke before I answered him. "She's still unresponsive, fuck knows when she'll wake up" I muttered. "I just need for her to wake up. I've never felt more useless in all my life. I wish I could take her place Jared because she sure as hell doesn't deserve what she's been put through". 

"She's one of the good ones Blaze" He sighed taking a seat beside me "But rest a sure we'll get the bastards. I heard we've got church tonight, is there a new lead?". 

"I can't lose her Jared because if I do I don't think I'll be able to come back from it. I fucked it with her, treated her how I treat those girls that come in here every night. How the fuck could I have been so stupid? I had the best thing that's ever happened to me in the palm my hand and I screwed it. How can she forgive me for that?" I asked completely ignoring his question. I needed to vent to someone I needed someone to listen to me to tell me she was going to pull through and everything was going to be alright. 

"She's a Mendez and if she's anything like her old man she'll pull through this in no time as for her forgiving you, you just gotta give her time. Show her that she's the only girl for you, that she will be the only girl for you. You just gotta get it through your head that if she's with you then she ain't going to be with anyone else. Ava is not that type of girl. I've seen how you've treated her in the past you have to stop pushing her away and trust her". Gripping my shoulder he gave it a hard squeeze. "Once you find the one you're meant to be with you grab onto it for dear life. Girls like Ava don't come around that often but when they do you claim them". 

Rubbing my hands over my face I got to my feet. "I gotta get back to the hospital and yeah prez wants everyone at the table tonight just don't be late not with everything that's happening. You could imagine what his moods like, keep me posted just in case he forgets". 

"You're not attending?" He asked leaning against the door frame. 

"First one I've ever missed but I'm not leaving her side again. Go make sure the rest know about tonight and make sure my brother is gone before I leave". 

"You got it VP" 

Pulling on some clean clothes I picked up my wallet and phone when something shiny caught my attention. Her neckless picking it up I slipped it into my cut pocket. Leaving my room I walked out into the bar area glad to see he had left. "Alright everyone listen up" I yelled gaining their attention. "Prez wants us all in church tonight 7pm not a minute later. Make sure no one gets through those doors apart from club members, got it?" I asked looking around at all of them. 

"Give her our love Blaze and a big warm hug. We'll take care of things around here you go be with your girl" Tank said as a chorus of 'you got it VP' and 'we'll sort it' echoed around the room. 

There was nothing more important than family especially to these guys. The love and gratitude they have shown has been out of this world. We may be the outlaw bikers that might not always get along but when it came down to family we all came together. 

"I'll catch you all later" 

Walking towards my bike I felt my phone vibrate from my inside pocket. Quickly pulling it out I answered it immediately. Had she woken up? 

"Hello" 

"You have to come quick...she's awake" Aubrey cried 

Why didn't it sound like a happy cry? 

"Im on my way" I said snapping my phone shut and jumping onto my bike. 

Something was wrong. 

Bursting through the hospital doors I ran through the halls until I got to her room my eyes landing on Fanko with Aubrey sobbing into his chest. What the fuck 

had happened? 

"What's happened?" I asked making them aware of my presence. 

"She doesn't want to see any of us" She cried holding on Franko tighter. "My baby doesn't want to see me". No she wasn't getting to do that she wasn't getting to shut us out not after what she has went through. 

"Let me speak with her?" I asked as Franko gave his nod of approval. I had no idea what to expect. Was she even going to speak to me? Taking a deep breath I pushed the door open my eyes landing directly on hers. 

Ava's POV........... 

"I told them I didn't want to see anyone" I snapped my eyes falling into slits. Did they ever listen? They are the reason I'm in here. 

"Well that's too bad sweetheart because there's a lot of people wanting to see you. How are you feeling?" He asked as he approached my bed. Really? How was I feeling? Was he serious? 

"How do you think I'm feeling? I've been unconscious for 3 weeks. I have a broken leg, a broken hand and a few broken ribs not to mention I probably look like crap. How do you think I feel?"I asked getting myself worked up. "I'm lucky to be alive". 

"Shit sorry sweets of course you're not doing good, do you need for me to get you anything? You hungry?". 

"I need for you to get out and leave me alone. I don't want you here I don't want any of you here so please just leave" I whispered crossing my arms over my chest, difficult thing to do when your hands in a cast. 

"Please don't be like this sweets" He pleaded slipping his hand into his pocket and pulling something out. "Was going to put this on you if you hadn't woken up by the time I came back" Hanging on his finger was my necklace. 

"Do you think that's going to make everything okay?" I asked taking it from him "Its just a necklace it doesn't mean anything" I shrugged dropping it onto the 

table beside my bed. I used to believe wearing it would keep me safe. 

"I get that you're upset Ava but..." 

"Upset?" I laughed cutting him off "I'm lying in a hospital bed have been for 3 weeks, I've got broken bones might never get the use of my hand back which will screw my career but no Blaze I'm not upset". I yelled angry tears springing from my eyes "I need for you all to leave and let me heal on my own, please?" I asked as the door to my room opened. 

"Please don't push us away Ava" My mom cried as she edged her way over to my bed my dad following closely behind her. "Oh god what have they done to my baby". Resting her hand against my cheek my eyes fell shut. 

Did I really look that bad? 

Sighing I opened my eyes noticing my dad had took the opportunity to sit in the chair beside my bed. He was quiet very quiet and he wasn't acting like his usual 

self. 

"At least I'm alive" I croaked my throat as dry as the Sahara desert. That was the main thing I was still breathing. "So what now?" I asked reaching for the glass of water on the bedside table, at least I wasn't stuck on a ward. 

Silence 

"Dad?" I questioned knowing he wouldn't let what happened to me slide. 

"You just worry about getting better and let me worry about everything else". 

Why wouldn't he look at me? 

"Dad?" I questioned again hoping this time he would at least look at me..... Nothing! "Why won't-...." 

"I said not to worry about it Ava so don't fucking worry about it" He snapped making me jump. "I need a smoke" He growled pushing himself of the chair and making a quick exit. 

Frowning I watched as my mom chased after him just like she always did. Why was he mad at me? I didn't cause this I never asked for them to run me off the road. 

Moving slightly I groaned at the pain that circulated my body. That only meant one thing I needed more pain relief. Hitting my button I let out the breath I was holding. 

"How sore are you darlin'?" He asked 

I think this was the first time Blaze didn't know how to act around me. He seemed different and I couldn't quite put my finger on how. It was like he was scared to say the wrong thing in case I went of on one. 

"My full body hurts and I can't wait to sleep in my own bed" I grumbled knowing that wasn't going to happen anytime soon. God knows how long I would have to stay here. 

"I can't imagine what you're going through baby I wish I could take the pain away" Lifting my hand off the bed he entwined our fingers and I didn't stop him.