Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 60 

"Right that's it sorted then now fuck off" He muttered hitting the gavel. Watching everyone get up and get to it I sat where I was. "You want to talk about feelings again?" He mocked my hands balling into fists. If there was anyone that could get under my skin it was Franko fucking Mendez. 

"Fuck you, you old tosser. You know what the fuck I'm capable of Franko so keep pushing my fucking buttons" I growled pushing my chair back and getting to my feet. 

"Blaze" He called making me turn my head so I could look at him. "Nice to know you still have your balls and believe me I know what you're capable of its the reason you where that VP patch. Now word is you're going back up to help Marko?" 

"Yeah need to clear my head" How the fuck did he always know what I was up to? 

"And how do you expect to win my daughter back if you aren't fucking here?" He asked just as Aubrey walked through the door. 

"She needs space and that's what I'm giving her. I'll call you when I check in and don't worry I won't come back until the fucker is cold in the ground". 

"You better not" We're his departing words. 

"When you heading out?" Tommy asked as I took a seat. 

"In the next hour or so" I replied pulling out my phone and bringing up her number. I had to try I had to see if she would answer. Four times I called and every single time I got her answering machine. 

"Probably best you sort your head out before you even attempt to win her back. She's a smart girl Blaze and if you want my opinion-.." 

"Well I didn't fucking ask for it now did I? Does everyone in this fucking place know my god damn business?" Seriously can't take a piss without everyone knowing about it. 

"Well you're going to fucking get it now shut up and fucking listen. Ava is a sweet girl if you can't give her your heart then don't fuck about with hers. She deserves better that that Blaze and in case you've forgotten she's a very special girl in this house". 

Why the hell was everyone getting on my case? 

I wanted to knock the old bastard out but thought better of it. "I know what I've done to her Tommy I don't need to keep being reminded about it. I fucked up, I'm the bad bastard I already know that". 

"Just gotta fight that little bit harder kid and I know Nate is your brother but I wouldn't worry about him her hearts not in it". 

Now he had my attention. How he always knew everything was a mystery. 

"Her heart already belongs to someone else. Trust me I've been around long enough to know what love is". 

Patting him on the back I made my way to my bedroom so I could grab a few things before I took off. Taking the black hold all from under my bed I chucked the essentials inside and zipped it shut. Sitting on my bed I took my phone back out and dialled Ally's number. 

"She with you?" I asked as soon as she answered. 

"She's in the shower Blaze now what do you want?" 

Of course she fucking told her. Couldn't really expect anything else when she was after all her best friend. Are girls always angry together? They confuse the shit out of me half the time. 

"Just checking up on her. Is she okay?" 

"If she wanted to speak to you she would have answered her phone now is there anything else you need?" She snapped. 

"Remember who you're talking to Ally just because you're fucking Cage doesn't mean you can run your mouth" I hissed surprised when she didn't hang up. 

"You hurt my best friend how do you expect me to speak to you? What is it you really want Blaze?" She sighed. 

"Tell her to go to the dinner for Leighton tonight. I won't be there and she needs to spend time with her family". It actually killed me that I had to speak through Ally to find out is she was okay. 

"Is that everything?" She asked. 

"And if you could text me during the week just to let me know how she's doing I'd really appreciate it". I said chancing my luck. 

"Bye Blaze" and this time she did hang up. 

I don't know why I did it but here I was sitting a few metres from her house. Ally pulled through and texted me letting me know she had went to the clubhouse but decided to go home. Wasn't in the mood for celebrating or some shit like that. 

What the fuck was I doing? I was acting like some crazy stalker. Shaking my head I turned my engine on and sped off down her street. I needed to give her time it may be the only way to fix all of this. 

Parking my bike next to the others I ran a hand down my face. I was wiped out and wanted nothing more than to crash. Hanging my helmet on the end of my handle bars I headed towards the entrance finding it a little odd that it was quiet. In fact it was way to quite for it only reaching midnight. What the hell was going on? 

Pushing the doors open every head inside turned my way. Yeah something had defiantly happened. Walking through the bar area I glared as they wouldn't stop staring at me. "What the fuck are you all looking at?" I yelled sitting my ass in the stool next to Marko. Lexi was holding onto him for dear life as she sobbed 

into in chest. 

"Blaze you shouldn't be here" Marko said gripping Lexi tighter. 

"And why the fuck not? I've just driven 5 hours to get here and now you're telling me I shouldn't be here. If you didn't need my help you could have at least phoned" Facing the bar I pointed to the girl that was behind it. "Get me a whiskey". And yet she didn't move she must be new. 

"It's alright Christine get him what he asked for he's family" Marko sighed running his hands up and down Lexi's back. 

Once I had my drink I downed it and slammed my glass onto the table. What a bloody welcoming this was. "Seriously Marko why didn't you just phone? I've got better things I could be doing like-..." 

"H-he doesn't know" Lexi stuttered cutting me off. "if he did he wouldn't be here. It must have happened when he had already left". 

"Doesn't know what? What the fuck is she talking about Marko?" 

Still no one said a word. 

"Someone had better answer me" I snapped starting to get pissed off. 

"Let's go into the office kid, I think it's better if I tell you in there" Marko said letting go of Lexi and getting to his feet. 

"No just fucking tell me here" 

"I thinks it better if we go in there" He snapped placing his hand on top of my shoulder. Why the fuck was he acting like that? And calling me kid? I wasn't fucking moving until someone told me what was going on. Glaring at him he sighed running a hand through his hair. 

"I'm so sorry Blaze" He muttered 

What the fuck was he sorry for? 

"It's Ava she's been in a car accident it's bad kid"... 

What.... 

No this wasn't true she was at home, she left the clubhouse and went straight home. I was fucking there. I was parked out side her house. 

"Blaze"..... 

"No" I snapped pushing his arm off me "Stop fucking lying" I roared getting to my feet. Ava was fine and right now I bet she was tucked up in bed ready for work. She always liked to get a good sleep before a long day at the hospital. 

Feeling as though someone had just sucker punched me all the air left my lungs. Not Ava, not my sweets! Gripping onto the side of the bar with both hands my breaths started coming out in pants. 

"How?" I asked teeth clenched as I was struggling to catch a breath. 

"They ran her off the road Blaze". 

Grabbing the glass of the bar I threw it against the wall in front of me. "Who ran her of the road?" I knew who is was but I had to here him say it. The bastards will pay and I will kill them with my bare hands. Swiping my arm over the bar I knocked all the glasses to the floor. 

"Fuck" I roared picking up the bar stool and throwing it towards the window. I couldn't stop anything and anyone in my way was getting it. And that how my rampage started. Flipping tables, throwing glasses and busting up my hands. Why the fuck did they have to hurt her? Punching the wall repeatedly I crashed my other hand into the signature mirror. 

"Marko you have to stop him" Lexi cried as I picked up the table and launched it through the air. Leaning my back against the wall a sob escaped my mouth as I 

fell to the floor. 

"I shouldn't have left" I muttered pouring myself another drink. "I should have thrown her stubborn ass onto my bike and brought her with me". Fuck giving her the space she needs I should never have let her go. 

"She's strong she'll pull through this" Lexi whispered 

"Don't talk about her like you fucking know her" I growled thumping my fist of the table. "I have to hit the road" I muttered getting to my feet. 

"The only place your going is in there to crash" Marko snapped nodding his head in the direction of the rooms. 

Laughing I grabbed the bottle of Jack Daniels of the table "You're not my prez Marko so don't try and tell me what to fucking do". I grumbled 

"I may not be your prez but what use are you to Ava if you're-..." 

Before he could finish his sentence I threw a punch hitting him square in the nose. "Don't you fucking speak about her" I roared throwing the bottle against the 

nearest wall. 

"I'm going to let that one slide" Marko growled as he wiped the blood from his nose "You can't ride home in that state Blaze don't be so fucking stupid. Catch a couple of hours and ride up when you're not out of it". 

"I have to be there now" I whispered slumping back down in my chair. I've never felt more useless in all my life. There was nothing I could do to make it better, nothing I could do to change the situation. Why did those fuckers have to go after her? 

"Nothing has changed Blaze and I'm sure you'll be the first to know if it does. There's nothing you can do from here so the quicker you sober up and sort yourself out the quicker you get to go be with her" Marko gripped my shoulder before getting to his feet. "We'll be heading out with you Franko wants us all together for this one". 

Getting to my feet I wondered of to find an empty room not that I would be able to sleep, not when every time I closed my eyes I could see her smiling face. Slamming the door shut behind me I collapsed onto the bed and cried. 

For the first time ever I was broken.